Such a busy busy week, what's with driving (I failed, which I happily recounted to Kat), school, teaching and baking cookies, I hardly have time to breathe.

This is all going to be in random, whatever comes to my mind first, so everything is probably jumbled up:


I was late for school twice, and twice I had friends reserving me seats at the centre row of the centre column at the centre seat. I am grateful they do think of me when they do that but it makes me feel so conspicuous entering the class half an hour late.


Which Vincent so love to point out. -.-


Met Raqeeb for break fast ((: Before that we went to Bras Basah to check out the Ibanez AW40 that I have an eye on for quite a while. Buuuuttt it's not so friendly I guess, playability wise. I don't know. He insisted on sending me home on his bike but me, being very rational, think a cab down to Loyang Point would be better.
Which wasn't, seeing that the driver did a stately 90km/h on normal road and very narrowly missing a truck. If he thought he was a member of Tokyo Drift, he thought wrong.
And so I spent 2 hours with my favourite student at MacD with her asking me the most personal questions I was tempted to sew her mouth. She's improving, which is good.
And we had a man (a grown man) who thinks he's driving an imaginary car, complete with imaginary clutch and gears, with an imaginary phone pressed tightly to his ear (I'd so love to say imaginary ear but that's not true... sigh) talking to his imaginary friend.
Such an odd ball.


And horribly sleepy the next day I went to school and walked around after with Dewi. She's crazy after that Louis Khoo guy so I waited with her till six plus-ish before I had to go off. She can really eat a lot though. Was planning to buffet the next week together already -.-
And broke fast with Ham at Bedok Corner. I have ate there thrice in the fasting month. I guess it's really good, plus good company. And we walked back to Bedok mrt (well, almost) laughing at the stupidity of people.

Talking about Hamzah we were talking about (naturally) random things and I was looking up on the net looking as to why women have cramps (for this month I'm cursed with it, probably with the help of damsel)and I don't know some terminology, so I asked him what is the cervical canal thingumajig.
And he told me to wait.
And produced this :

It took me five minutes to stop laughing.

So I was thinking of sleeping when I reached home. But to my horrror my mum started THE production. That's right, THE production of cookies and oh the many annoying things to bake. Thing is, my household bakes for 4 households. Like what the fuck? Do I look like I'm cheap labour (my aunt's cheap labour too by the way)? Which apparently is so. Got me sleeping at 5 freaking am. It was quite fun though. You don't know my aunt(s). Throughout the night we were having conversations by spelling.

Eg.

Ili: Bik, could you pass me the f-r-u-i-t j-u-i-c-e? (it's all spelled out)
Bibik: Oh, so God don't give you h-a-n-d-s to take it y-o-u-r-s-e-l-f?

Fucking hilarious I so love. And warbling songs off Class 95 till the morning.


The next day we continued a bit of THE production at the balcony (my aunt wanted to feel as if she's in a garden; with the greenery and the sound of trickling water from the pond. IMO: BULL).

I was almost late for Econometrics but I wasn't. Kumar had a haircut. I don't really like the way Kumar teach cause he assumes you know EVERYTHING. Which, as a student, you don't. Sat around during lunch break with Kat, Weichun and Riz before the first two had to go for class (note to Kat: I'm so proud of you that you went). So Riz regaled me with stories I couldn't quite half believe it. And so he proved that he spoke Russian by talking to one of the Mongolian staff (yes we do have Mongolian staffs) in that language. And she told me it's true that he's speaking it. =.=
OH YES Muralli aka JESUS talked to me just now. I feel so sagely LOL. Haven't told Adel about it. So I'm to ask a few junior colleges if they would allow talks conducted by the College.


I had such a painful long break but it's not too bad. Went out with Ching, Andrea and Tracy for early dinner, where I tapau-ed and ate in class. So I was wrong thinking my other course mates are nerds (which they're so not, they're awesome fun). And we were having conversations about secondary schools, when Andrea told us she's from St. Nichs. Like wtf haha she told me she went to Stansfield after working for a few years, and that her last examination was the O levels, and there I was wondering what went wrong in her education. And she was from St. Nichs, with ten freaking O levels.
God mode man.
(She's quite cute by the way, and NO it doesn't mean anything before you guys harp at me like... well, harps)

Abstract Math was abstract thus leaving me brainless, and I went to meet two males for supper at Popeye's. As usual Syahril had his way, I pointed it out to him. Meh! There was this joke sent to guys.

Text read: Warning to all men, please do not suck on China women's breasts as they're contaminated with melamine.

Haha roll on floor laughing my ass off (in other words, roflmao! It's an expression Jien loved to use).

Talking about texts, my student Bijak Bestari was touchingly at a disbelief when I told her I failed me driving.

Ili: Oh, I failed my driving knocked so many things!
Fifa: Hahah so you passed! (I don't think I could've made my sentence any clearer)
Ili: NO I failed la.
Fifa: Sure... Congratulations :)
Ili: I'm not joking I FAILED.
Fifa: Right.

Which resorted me to call her an tell her that her tutor isn't as perfect as she thinks I am LOL.
(That bit took more than 2 minutes)

Anyway there were few things people said that was quite bothering me. About how we thought about 'it', we really would think of it at least once in our lifetime, but we usually never crossed it. Which I did. And I wonder how people could actually make the choice.
Isn't the choice already made for you?

Another was the saying of 'me too'. I was berated by a student because she overheard snippets of my conversation with the Man and there's a part where I smiled and said 'me too'. She nagged (still do, really) and said that saying me too would hurt others because it kind of shows that you couldn't say those words out yourself.
Which I can't really bring myself to lately, because I usually mean what I say.
So that point is settled.

And it's weird that when I had something major (like failing the driving test! HAHA) I resort to a certain someone who reminded me of the past to cheer me up; which she did, immensely.
Which is a bad sign. I'm never going to learn from my lesson.

And, goodbyes, you hugged me so tight,
as if you're saying don't go.
But I have to. Eventually,
I have to leave you.

ofblack&white
11:28 PM

Sleepy.

Thursday was God-awfully long, and with the arrival of my menses (sorry male readers for this explicit info) I cannot fast. And you know, when you're NOT fasting during the fasting month it's different, hunger pangs hit you like how an Uzi would.
I had my very first Abstract Math class yesterday, and it's Math at it's most nonsensical. We have a thing called Mathematical Logic?? And we have to prove things like
"Is there such thing as a biggest prime number?"

So hungry and tired after that, ended at ten at night. My night makan kakis were unavailable. The Man was working night shift ): And Teo's in army (WHY -.-) and I don't think I can stand Mat's annoyingness so I called Syahril the Orchard Policeman and he's free so we sat around for supper until midnight, before heading home.

Thursdays; I need people to eat with me on Thursday nights.


I had the first lesson with Amira yesterday and teaching someone new (note to future students: If you have huge puppy eyes, please make it smaller, they make me nervous I don't know why, it doesn't help that.....) is always quite a challenge. Getting familiarise and trying to know their weak points. Tedious, and I have to get her to at least pass.
Meh. But it'll be alright.

And Ev passed her Biz Math with a B+ ohmygod (don't worry Pei En you'll still be Number One student). But am glad. One down. Many more to go.

Went over to MJ's today tried out some new songs and I so love the part where I played rhythm and he does his usual plucking on the Fender. Haha he's damn cool please.


Mmm teaching and studying is a good combination. Doesn't leave much space for idle.


Anyway pressing matter at hand the Man's birthday is in 2 weeks time, 27th of September, and I haven't a clue for his present. Yes alot of things I could get but I want to put the most thought to it, because he is the most thoughtful person in my existence, and also the kindest and most loving. And so, it has to be something damn special and priceless.
BUT WHAAAAAAT IS IT. That has been alluding me for so long. I could sew for him something (note: If I sew something for you it's means you mean alot to me, because I fucking HATE to sew and I can't do so for nuts), or I don't know!
I know what he truly wants but it's not of my interest, YET (it starts with M people, if you're wondering HA).

Sigh, men are so tough to pamper sometimes.


It must be the Toblerone Fruit and Nuts, tummy's killing me.

ofblack&white
5:05 PM

Night's been good these days, so clear and windy it's a joy to sleep. Sadly I didn't/couldn't take advantage of it.


The other time the moon was so so beautiful, so clear with little wispy clouds around it. And we sat at the playground beneath it and play nice songs on the guitar. Too bad it was just Kat and not some sexxeh man/woman. Haha talk about spoiling a chance for possible romance ;p
And conversations till wee morning; about Muralli (aka JESUS HAHA), maternity stores, photo albums, getting pregnant (not on my part), spoiling weddings, jeluz jeluz boys, bad sex (again, not on my part), KIDS' NAMES OMG, perfect cheesy moments and bankers.

Talking about bankers, Lehman Brothers went down, next up would be AIG (or AIA in Singapore, thought not much danger of collaspe here). People, watch your insurance companies they might be sinking. Central banks all over are increasing money supply left right and centre. As the good Economics students I expect all of you to be, expansionary monetary policy is bad news because this sparks off inflation.

What the hell. They brought it to themselves by their dishonesty. But others suffer.
Cruel, isn't it?


Anyway, I was cajoled by a student into teaching Amira Economics. I have to say, I was very reluctant to agree but because she couldn't afford Munshi's (who's actually conceptually wrong so I heard) and there wasn't any tutors who could step in and help at the eleventh hour. And so, albeit being horribly reluctant, I relented to that one student who could always twist my limb in every direction =.= "Welcome on board the ili experience!"


Sigh and so, additional responsibilty is added to my already sagging shoulders and aching back. I get horribly jittery teaching someone who is in dire need of help when it's so near the exams because I'm pressured to obtain some sort of a miracle for them. It's the same with Evina, who's results will be in tomorrow.
Lo behold, sleepless night!


I finally met Yats last Saturday at the mosque and we did all we could to not scream. So much stories exchanged and as usual all the updates on everyone we know. Haha! While I'm ranting to her about the unfairness of being bisexual she said she'd rather be that than be in dilemma over two guys (as she has always been, things never change! she should just get hitched to Azry), since being a bi would mean that at the end of the day, you know you would have to pick the marriable one.
HAHA to that.


It was a bad day in a good way. And having recurring dreams about a certain being doesn't help (and to Kat and possibly Fifa, it's not THAT person), I came to the conclusion that
God should make all my classmates male.


My favourite Chinese boy's off to the army to be a Man.
Now I'll feel horribly lonely whenever I go Parkway.

ofblack&white
7:33 PM

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do.
It's the wrong kind of place
to be thinking of you.
It's the wrong time,
for somebody new.
It's a small crime,
and I've got no excuse.

Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded.
Is that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I suppose to hold it?
Is that alright with you?


No.

ofblack&white
2:50 AM

Ah. My timetable is okay, save Thursday's.

Thursday:
1130 to 1300 hours - Econometrics Tutorial
1600 to 1730 hours - Abstract Math Tutorial
1845 to 2015 hours - Abstract Math Lecture
2030 to 2200 hours - Econometrics Lecture


Like noooooooooooooooo HOW CAN I HAVE SUCH HUGE BREAKS IN BETWEEN!!!!

I wanted to raise hell at Kumar but he looked too apologetic for me to even start.
Sigh.

But still, I won't (and I mean it!) skip classes anymore because I have learnt my lesson.
(To whom it may concern, please don't skip! :D )



Yesterday while I was on the train platform, there's a very annoying woman who thinks she's pretty(in my opinion and on my scale of prettiness, she wouldn't come close to the hundredth decimal place even if you were to round it up), flicking her hair at the direction of the wind and kept giving surreptitious glances to whoever was looking at her (I'm sure there wasn't anyone else but me, and I was burning holes at her overly permed and coloured hair). I very nearly pushed her down the tracks when the train approached but due to the fasting month and all that abstinence-and-patience yaya, I didn't.


Went to meet Teo, who broke fast with me. He's so nice, insisting that he'll wait for me before eating and refused to touch a single chunk of meat, and buying most of the stuff while I sit down like a princess. (: Between the two of us, we finished 20 sticks of satay, a lump of white carrot cake, a plate of fried kway teow, a plate of roti john with cheese, chng tngs, and fruit juices. Plus we headed down to Gelare for Half-Price Tuesday in Matin's car (he narrowly missed a cyclist, resulting in flurries of vulgarity). It was like a mini TK gathering, with Zhao Ming and gang in one corner, us, Salam & co, then Ying Zhen joined us.


I must snap out of sleeping at 4 am and waking at 12. It's such a bad habit and probably screw up my biological clock (if it's not screwed up yet). I need to enjoy the mornings; like hearing the birds chriping so gaily you wanna shoot them, listening to children going to school screaming their lungs out you'd wish it'll rain and drown their voices (along with them of course), and oh flipping through the channels and staring at horror the most kitsch talk shows around (like Tyra's, so bimbotic!).
Such a ray of sunshine.


Oh and! Yesterday Dzul called me from Melbourne (doing some prank call shit as usual, I'm an easy prey of that) which was a very pleasant surprise because a)he doesn't talk much to me usually, b)he's cute, truly (can't believe I said that), and c)good way to kill time. Haha! Yesterday was a good day for me.



And so, God switched on the flash function of His camera to get a better view, only to be greeted by sodden characters roaming the streets hungry for something more than food; girls so scantily clad teethering on heels too high for them, and men seeking carnal joys.
Of wives that are not subservient to their spouses, of husbands seeking escape from home, nowhere to go. Mothers that threw their child to salvage whatever's left of pride, and fathers that leered at their own daughters.
How to cope?
With leaders that thought only of self-serving, deaf to the cries of their responsibility. And organisations that portray hope, only to be stripped of their veneers by racism, profit, and power.
Sights of liberation tainted by real intentions to command and conquer.
Bodies unwilling stripped down to earn, head to toe.

As we get older, we get more silly and maladies set in.
I guess it's the same for Earth. As it aged, it became more diseased than ever, and it's not long,
not long more till He decided to pull the plug on her.

ofblack&white
12:05 AM

ofblack&white
1:22 AM

This week marks the start of the fasting month; All hell chained up above (or below, I don't know), and abstinence is the key.

Which means I am to curb my addictions. Like spending, for one. I blew 100+$ during the weekends on clothing and apparels. To be frank, I paid only few dollars during that weekend, after an eternal argument with the Man on who's paying, which I nearly tore a 50$ note to let him know I'm serious about this. Seriously, I can't have this on my conscience.
But it was fun nevertheless. Met the most colourful character in Greg.

The week had not been uneventful, not that it had been so eventful that I had to catch a breath. It was more interesting, to say the least. I spent (or wasted, whichever you choose) half a Monday with Afifa, who went to book her BTT (which she complained of the long queue, and upon getting a test date, complained of the long wait) and supposed to be teaching but then who else could forget foolscap paper, GC and a pencil box?? So ended up sitting at the very end of Changi enjoying the breeze and scenery, occasionally unfurling umbrellas.
And went to teach. And supped at Swensen's ((: Meeting a very interesting writer Hideo Asano. Tuesday was all about rushing from Far East to Eunos, getting caught in the most awful bout of rain.
Wednesday was teach, teach, teach and teach.

Today would have been good, had not greeted me with tear-stained cheeks. Le sigh. I hate this part of the job. Twice already love. And instead of probing I sat and let her regain some normality before we resumed per normal.
But still, I hate to see pretty girls cry -.-

And had a very good talk about religion with (surprisingly) Vincent. The Man passed his TP bike, and so we're going bike-shopping one of these days (he insist of getting me a pink helmet LOL). Went to Forum Toys R Us and he can be such a kid with lego and all that remote-controlled vehicles that he so love. After prayers went off to sup at Hagen Daaz (which is superb by the way, BE jeluz) before being sent home.

Pampered is the order of the day ((:


OH and best of all Kat and I found someone who actually thought Orlando Bloom had pointy ears (akin LOTR character that he played, Legolas) and it was such a laugh please.
My results are still not in! RAH.




And so best friend was being exceptionally nice this week makes me feel suspicious.

ofblack&white
11:12 PM